ok, so, yes, this is normal.
I have been ttc for over 3 yrs. I have been through multiple IVF cycles, and in Oct 2011 I did my first FET (frozen embryo transfer) which resulted in my first pregnancy. Of course, I was super excited and happy, but part of me wasn't really sure how real it was, or could be. A couple weeks after we found out I was pregnant, I started losing the baby. I was 6w4d when the u/s showed no hb (after having seen a hb on 2 previous u/s), it was too late and he was gone (I, too, always felt mine was a boy, so he is always referred to as such
). 2 days after that (the day after Thanksgiving) is when I finally passed him. I was mostly ok with what had happened right away. I never cried, which I thought was strange, but on the other hand, its like I knew from the start it wasn't going to go very far. I did, however, get pretty angry. I hated that I had to be around so much family all the time with the holidays going on the whole next month. I love Christmas, but didn't care about it at all this year, there was no decorations in the house, and only a few on the outside. I knew that I was going to go ahead and try again right away, but I just didn't know when I would be able to start the process. I seemed to bleed forever!! (37 days to be exact). finally, the week between Christmas and New Years I stopped bleeding and I told the dr I was ready to try again, but that I wanted to just do a more "casual" approach. so we did 2 medicated cycles before going back to IVF. we did our 4th retrieval in March 2012, but because of lining issues, we couldn't transfer, and we froze all of the embryos and we were going to transfer in May. DH lost his job in April instead, so we have been on hold, until now. He starts his new job Monday, and in August we will be able to move forward again.
So, again, yes, the fact that you are able to move on, remembering that she will be watching over you all, is normal. no one else can decide for you when you are ready except you. you are going to think of your little one every now and again, and your due date month might be a little difficult, but she is up there picking out her brothers and sisters for you to have later on.
Kristie...mommy to angel babies Eskimo (6w4d) & Polar Cub (c/p)
3 transferred, 1 sticky Puggle!