Hi Devin.  I'm so sorry that you are dealing with the loss of your father now....what should be one of the happiest times in your life. 

My mom lost her mother while she was pregnant with my brother and then her dad when she was pregnant with my sister.  My dad's brother comiited suicide right before I was born.  My mom always felt like the timing of these deaths were for a reason.  While she ached for her loved one, she was given a new gift...a precious  baby. 
I know that doesn't help you not miss your father any less but perhaps it can give you a little hope.

From my experience, death is a life changing event...the first year is by far the hardest....you won't ever get over it but you will find a way to live and breathe again.

Hugs!

If I can be of any help, please let me know.

Thank you so much....the tears just flow.....your words are so comforting!

My baby was stillborn April 30, 2009 at 36 gestational weeks.  My Dad was so excited and would tell me how beautiful I was the bigger I got and insisted that she would be born on her exact due date (even though I told him that rarely happens).  I was having a girl and his big gift to me was a pink and brown pack-in-play - even though I expressed a neutral color one for future pregnancies, but he said he just fell in love with the one he got me, and said if I ever had a boy he'd go buy a blue one!  I'm telling you this because two months after my baby died, my Dad died without much warning. 
 
I am pregnant again after so short a time, and like you, wishing that my Dad was here because I know he would be the most excited of everyone. 
 
I think the only thing that makes me feel better is that he was such a great Dad and I know one day if I ever get to be a parent, I would try very hard to be as good a parent as he was. 
 
The pack-in-play is still in a box, because I never had a reason to put it together (Dad also warned me not to because HE was going to do it). But, boy or girl, I'm using it.
 
I don't think there is anything in the world that can ever make a person feel at peace with losing someone too soon.  Our Dads will never meet our children, but I guess we can try to give them a bit of who our Dads were.  Good luck with your pregnancy and I hope things get better for you!

Tabascoy wrote:My baby was stillborn April 30, 2009 at 36 gestational weeks.  My Dad was so excited and would tell me how beautiful I was the bigger I got and insisted that she would be born on her exact due date (even though I told him that rarely happens).  I was having a girl and his big gift to me was a pink and brown pack-in-play - even though I expressed a neutral color one for future pregnancies, but he said he just fell in love with the one he got me, and said if I ever had a boy he'd go buy a blue one!  I'm telling you this because two months after my baby died, my Dad died without much warning. 
 
I am pregnant again after so short a time, and like you, wishing that my Dad was here because I know he would be the most excited of everyone. 
 
I think the only thing that makes me feel better is that he was such a great Dad and I know one day if I ever get to be a parent, I would try very hard to be as good a parent as he was. 
 
The pack-in-play is still in a box, because I never had a reason to put it together (Dad also warned me not to because HE was going to do it). But, boy or girl, I'm using it.
 
I don't think there is anything in the world that can ever make a person feel at peace with losing someone too soon.  Our Dads will never meet our children, but I guess we can try to give them a bit of who our Dads were.  Good luck with your pregnancy and I hope things get better for you!

 
I'm so sorry for your losses.  Your dad sounds like such a loving man.  I know your heart aches.
Hugs!

I miss my dad too!.  I lost him in May after a two year battle with cancer.  My husband and I had been trying to conceive for around 8 months.  Dad told me last Halloween that if I wanted him to meet my children, then I needed to get started.  I prayed an awful lot about getting pregnant before he passed, but if just never happened.  I found out that I was pregnant just two months after Dad passed away.  I really feel like God answered a prayer that I didn't know existed, because I was able to help care for my father the last week under Hospice care.  I wouldn't have been able to dedicate myself to Dad if I had been pregnant or caring for a newborn.  I truly believe that Dad has something to do with my pregnancy and will be watching over this baby every step of the way.  I plan on always talking about "Big Daddy" to my children.  They will know him, even if he's in heaven, and I take great comfort in knowing that I will see him again.  Thank you all for sharing your stories!  It make me feel like I'm not the only one dealing with this grief, guilt, and happiness.  Good luck to everyone!

stephaniels wrote:I miss my dad too!.  I lost him in May after a two year battle with cancer.  My husband and I had been trying to conceive for around 8 months.  Dad told me last Halloween that if I wanted him to meet my children, then I needed to get started.  I prayed an awful lot about getting pregnant before he passed, but if just never happened.  I found out that I was pregnant just two months after Dad passed away.  I really feel like God answered a prayer that I didn't know existed, because I was able to help care for my father the last week under Hospice care.  I wouldn't have been able to dedicate myself to Dad if I had been pregnant or caring for a newborn.  I truly believe that Dad has something to do with my pregnancy and will be watching over this baby every step of the way.  I plan on always talking about "Big Daddy" to my children.  They will know him, even if he's in heaven, and I take great comfort in knowing that I will see him again.  Thank you all for sharing your stories!  It make me feel like I'm not the only one dealing with this grief, guilt, and happiness.  Good luck to everyone!

 

What a beautiful picture of you and your Dad. 
Hugs!