Hi, my name is Emily. I have had 2 miscarriages this year. One on May 17  at 10 weeks and another on Sept 6 at 6 weeks.  I found out that I was pregnant the first time in March. It only took us 2 months. I thought I was pretty lucky. Things were going well. Never had any sickness. Then on a Fri. in May, my back started hurting really badly. I thought this was normal as your ligaments start loosening up. Then I started spotting on Sat. I went to the ER and they just put me in a room on the maternity floor which was nice. I had an ultrasound and the heart wasn't beating, the baby wasn't as big as it was supposed to be at 10 weeks, and my hormones weren't where they should've been. They said I lost it before I was 10 weeks. So I didn't pass everything til Thurs. The doctor said it would be like a "mini-labor" with just really bad cramps and clots. Horrendous pain/cramps every 15 mintes for about 1 1/2 hours was more like it. I called the nurse and  she put me on bed rest for the weekend to help slow the bleeding. I was back at work the next week.
After about a month, we said "whatever happens, happens." We weren't really trying, but we weren't preventing it either. And lo and behold, we got pregnant again in July. This time, I had a little sickness but no throwing up or anything. I just got a little sick when I didn't eat and even when I did eat. Then all of a sudden, the sickness stopped. I knew something was wrong. Then on a Fri, I started spotting again. I called the nurse and she put me on bed rest to see if it would stop and told me to call on Mon. I saw a doctor and she said since it stopped that I should be ok and sent me home. Then it all started again on that Fri.  Sunday afternoon, I went to the ER. I knew what was happening and just wanted something for the pain. I didn't get anything but regular tylenol after being there for hours in pain, which wasn't as bad as last time, but lasted more hours.  I've had some blood tests done and they came back normal, so they won't do anymore testing til after a 3rd miscarriage. Now I've had 1 period since then and this dread just comes over me. I know it's not a miscarriage, but the bleeding and cramps just bring back that dread. Does anyone else feel this way?