MrsDedo wrote:Hi i am new here. My name is Sara I am 23, married for almost 2 years. i wanted to know if there are any women like me here on this board who had neonatal loss. I didn't have a miscarriage i had my son through emergency C-section at 30 weeks due to PPROM. He lived for 3 days then passed. I didn't get to hold him. His Birthday is coming soon 5th March and i am really sad these day. How do you deal with seeing all the baby clothes and stuff. I just sit in the nursery and look at everything and cry. most of the big things like crib etc. are hidden but i don't want to hide all the clothes as they are all organised and i expected to be pregnant some time ago. Every month when AF comes i just feel like thats another month later in the year to have my LO. I know it will come when God wills it, but is there anyone out there who feels like me? Can't talk to anyone about my feelings because i don't want them to know those private thought. Can't talk to my husband because he is still heartbroken as is my mother.
Thank you for reading.
I was just reading your post and wanted to welcome you to BabyZone and also to let you know that I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot even imagine having to go through something like this.
I agree with Mumeva_BZCL. Talk about it to your husband and mom; they might just be afraid to talk to you thinking they will hurt you even more. Remember we are also here for you.
Let us know how are doing please.