I lost my 2nd child to SIDS when he was 2 months old. I was hoping to never have to experiance that kind of pain again. Now 2 weeks ago I miscarried my 3rd child (found out he quit growing 3 weeks ago) . I have to say it supprised me how badly it hurt. Me and DH had started trying 9months before i got pregnant. We were both really excited and making plans. I was 12 weeks and we had already had baby names picked out.  Then i passed a blood clot so we went to the hospital and found out the baby had quit growing at 5 weeks 4 days. They told me what to expect and sent me home to think and wait. Exactly a week later i went to the hospital with massive bleeding and found out i was hemmoraging. (sp?) well they gave me a vaginal suppository and sent me home. Well it stopped the bleeding that night but started up badly again the next so i ended up back at the hospital. They , oddly enough, induced me with pitocin and by time it was all said and done i needed a blood transfusion and everything before they gave me the DNC. I am having trouble handling it. Its gotten to the point that i feel like I complain to much so i have quit talking to anyone about it and that has gotten unbearable. I dont know what to do anymore and its gotten to the point that i just want to tell everyone to stay away from me. Everyone seems to know whats best for me and just doesnt understand. Even the one friend i have thats been through this before is lecturing me because my dr told me differnt from her dr so apparently hes wrong and im doing everything wrong and im just sick of it all. I am so sorry to go off on this rant my very first post im just lost and tired.