Chemical Pregnancy... =(

Mon Aug 13, 2012 3:46 pm

Well, I'm not sure who all remembers but I had some funny looking HPT's last Thursday and Friday. I had a beta HCG drawn on Friday and the level was 7. So my doctor told me that there was definitely something happening, but it was really low. So I had another beta drawn today and I just heard that it was only 2. So definitely a chemical pregnancy. I am so sad. I really wanted an April baby. I have always said that April seems like a nice time to have a baby. I am just so confused. I see a whole truck-load of specialists who are supposed to be helping me GET pregnant and most importantly helping me STAY pregnant. How am I still losing pregnancies? It just makes no sense to me. What is wrong with my body that I cannot KEEP babies in there once they stick?

2 Angel Babies (3/2012 & 8/2012)

Mon Aug 13, 2012 4:15 pm

First and foremost, I am so so sorry for your loss. Doesn't matter how early on you are, its never easy regardless. If you dont mind me asking, how many losses have you had? Only reason I ask is if its 3 or more, your OB should be doing some testing to figure out what could be potentially causing the losses. I was lucky and my OB started some blood work after my 2nd but they found nothing. Sometimes they need to go further than that so I started to see an RE b/c I felt like I didn't get the attention I deserved through my OB. They kept just saying that b/c i had one healthy child i'd have another. But after seeing a HB with my 3rd loss and then going on to lose it, I had to have answers. It was through her that we finally got the answers (which you can see below in my signature).

I would definitely demand some testing and see what you might be able to find out. If you haven't already have a chromosomal analysis done on both you and your DH/SO I would suggest it. Its just blood work. It was with my husband where the underlying problem was.

And I know what you mean on the months. I've gone through many "seasons" with my losses but eventually you realize that when you do get that sticky pregnancy, that that particular month will end up being the perfect one. :-) If you ever need to talk or want more info feel free to email me prshiss01@gmail.com. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS)))

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Mon Aug 13, 2012 9:28 pm

(lots of hugs for you both) im so sorry about your losses. mays not a bad month, all that rain ending and those beautiful flowers popping up everywhere! your both in my prayers

Mon Aug 13, 2012 9:33 pm

I am so sorry for your loss Dena. I'm sending you some hugs and prayers. We're all here for you.

Mon Aug 13, 2012 9:47 pm

I remember. I was rooting for you, too. I'm so sorry for your loss

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Tue Aug 14, 2012 6:14 am

I am so sorry! I really hope you can heal, your in my thoughts and prayers.

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Tue Aug 14, 2012 7:40 am

Oh Dena, I am so sorry. Losing a pg is never easy no matter how far along you are. Is your dr going to start some testing? Big hugs to you.

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Tue Aug 14, 2012 8:51 am

Ahh I'm so so sorry to hear the news. I was stalking the boards hoping from an update from you, and it so not what I was expecting to hear. Prayers to you girl.

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Tue Aug 14, 2012 11:30 am

So sorry for your loss. I know how your feel. Chemcial pregnancies are like a dirty trick I think. Its never easy. Hopefully you will get some answers. Thats always the hardest, no concrete reasoning behind WHY its happening....(((HUGS)))

Tue Aug 14, 2012 3:25 pm

I have a follow-up consult with a reproductive immunologist on Aug 31st. I have been seeing him since after my first miscarriage (that loss was at 8 weeks). He did a whole truck load of testing in April and found a few things wrong with me. Since then I've been following his suggestions like clock-work. I am taking Metformin for PCOS, I was on Lovenox for MTHFR deficiency, Metanx for MTHFR as well, along with prenatals. I just don't understand. I hired him to PREVENT me from losing another pregnancy, but I guess it just happened too early for him to even detect it. I got immune testing on Friday as soon as I found out I was pregnant but the results aren't even in yet. I guess we might get some answers though if the immune results are wonky.

Other than that I have been seen by a reproductive endocrinologist and an endocrinologist (for my thyroid disease) as well.

I guess I am just a complicated case. It appears I'm not having as much trouble conceiving as I am just getting them to stick. I think it is harder to suffer multiple losses than it is to not get pregnant. Idk. just how it feels to me at least. I hate thinking about what "could have been".

Thank you for all your prayers. Means a lot to me.

2 Angel Babies (3/2012 & 8/2012)

Tue Aug 14, 2012 3:43 pm

Very very sorry to hear. I hope your RE has some answers for you on the 31st. Sending healing thoughts your way!

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Tue Aug 14, 2012 11:36 pm

My heart bleeds for you and yours... Its a feelling like NO OTHER. All that potential and hope and (albeit momentarily) Joy... to have to find a way to say goodbye so soon after saying hello is not easy to cope with.

My husband and I are on our 5th pregnancy and are also on lovenox and progesterone to try to maintain untill our 13th week. We went through months of clomid and injections after seeing a fertility specialist. We took it upon ourselves to seek out a fertility specialist after healing from our most recent miscarriage. We are hopeful for a healthy baby this time around.

I can certainly relate to the whole thinking its better to just not be pregnant than to suffer a loss. Every month becomes a vicious waiting game filled with the most incredible ups and downs as every percieved 'symptom' becomes hyper aware.
Long story short I truly hope you concieve soon, waiting is almost unbareable.
Many hearts feel as yours do, and I hope soon you find peace.

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