Thu Jan 24, 2013 10:08 am
Alright ladies, this morning I tested bfn again. I am not 100% sure what day I ovulated bc I didn't temp. On Jan 11th I got a positive opk. I also had a positive opk for about 3 days. Anyway, I'm guessing I O'd 12 to 36 hrs after my first positive opk. I went back & did some research on my charts & I always start spotting exactly 14 days after my positive opk. Which would be tomorrow & it usually always starts off brown. Well, this morning when I wiped I saw nothing then I wiped again & there was 2 tiny little specs of red blood in my cm. I think my cervix is high (I'm having a hard time finding it). I can just feel the tip of it & I am pretty sure it is usually a lot lower than that. Now, I am wondering if I O'd a few days later than normal & that blood I saw was implantation bleeding or am I just wishful thinking? I have no other symptoms besides my nipples (not breast) being sore. Well, I have been extra emotional, but hey, that happens a lot! The blood may have just been pre AF & I am just being silly, but it was just odd to say the least.
My mom was discharged from the hospital yesterday, but before she left a preacher came by to read scripture & pray with us. We held hands & as the preacher prayed, at one point she prayed for me from my head to my toes & she said I pray for the grandchildren even if they are merely just a twinkle in the eye right now! My parents have no grandchildren & I thought what she said was so special, which may be one of the reasons I am so hopeful today.
I hope I O'd later than I thought & this morning was implantation bleeding which is why I have been getting BFN's the past couple days. I can wish & pray right?
My wish & prayer every single day is for every woman who longs to have a baby gets that chance. Nothing hurts me more than knowing what sooo many women go through to get their baby & some still never have the chance. I pray for these women every day. Including you guys. We will soon get our precious babies I just know it!!
Sorry for the LONG post! I will update you guys when I know more.