Because I am trying to drive myself insane

Sun Jan 20, 2013 7:34 pm

DH and I are using pull and pray as our birth control . We are supsoe to start ttc next month. But DH is having second thoughts. In 2011 we lost a 5 1/2 week old son Joshua. Well AF has been very odd since the beginning of 2012. Every time I am late I think maybe we had a opps. I am driving myself insane because she is late again. I went and did a "when would I be due" thing. It said Septemebr 26th. Our son Joshua was born September 23rd. I just had to share this as I have nobody to share it with. My husband would rolls his eyes and our family does not know we are even thinking about it(they would not be happy).

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com

Sun Jan 20, 2013 10:32 pm

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm sure it's still hard to understand. I'm in the same boat as my first pregnancy due date was sept 17 2008 but it ended up as a partial molar pregnancy with a d&c. This month is out first month trying for number 3 now and I don't want to be due or have a baby in September bc it would be too hard for me. In my mind, that month Sept is dedicated to our first baby. So I get where your coming from.
I hope that when you get your bfp it all turns out okay for you.

Mommy to Gavin 1-3-09 and Emma 6-3-11
PMP at 8 weeks 2-12-08

Mon Jan 21, 2013 4:37 pm

She is still MIA. I was due to start the 19th. I even have done things that normaly jump start her. Lots of caffine,chocolate,running, and a hot shower. Nothing. I have all my period signs also. I would love to be pregnant actually. But if I let myself think I am then when she comes it is that much harder.

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com

Tue Jan 22, 2013 2:23 pm

Still MIA and cramping bad. I want to go get a test so bad right now.

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com

Tue Jan 22, 2013 6:20 pm

So sorry for your loss. Dates are very prevalent to me. Such as I got my driver's license on 9/18/1999. My daughter was born 9/18/2006. I had GD with my pg's and when I was in the hospital for my diabetic council, the date was 7/13/2006. My second daughter was born 7/13/2009.

Mama to McKenna and Rilee, and Angel Babies Brady (2008), Kendall (2012), and Casey (2013).

Tue Jan 22, 2013 7:38 pm

yeah, dates are big for us. Myself,husband and 4 oldest all have birthday with teens in the day area. I got my engament ring 12/19/96 and our first was born 12/19/97. My Husband and I are snipping because I am stressing. I just want her to start or be able to get a pregnancy test.lol.

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com

Wed Jan 23, 2013 9:12 am

Still MIA. I am still cramping and I keep feeling like it has started but nothing. I had alot of CM but now none. I am so confused right now. I honestly feel like I am pregnant. But that is probably in my head.

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com

Thu Jan 24, 2013 3:29 pm

Yup, still MIA. Cramping is still there. We had sex and it helped the cramps for a bit.lol. I am driving myself crazy right now with wishing,hoping, and being scared.

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com

Fri Jan 25, 2013 9:46 am

Still no period. But my lovely husband told me sevral things today that are mean and hurtful. He accused me of trying to trick him into getting pregnant and he said other things.

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com

Sat Jan 26, 2013 8:47 pm

I'm sorry your DH is being hurtful Is AF still missing? Maybe buy a cheap test for piece of mind to know either way.

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Sun Jan 27, 2013 12:38 pm

Yes, she is still missing. So I am sure I am pregnant. I will be testing Tuesday as sadly that is earliest day I can get to the store. My husband and I talked. He said alot of things out of stress and fear. We planned to ttc after our taxes came because we can be caught up on alot of bills. But it seems that someone had other plans. it is kind of weird because it seems every time we say we want another something big happens,we say we will wait, and it is to late. lol. We are doing better right now. Hopefully when I take a test and get a positive we can continue to be ok.

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com

Sun Jan 27, 2013 4:09 pm

Sorry Dh is is being a butt hopfully things will stay better and im hoping to see your BFP soon! Af arrived for me so here is cycle 3 after d and c URGHHHHHHHH

My Ovulation Chart

Thu Jan 31, 2013 3:21 pm

So sorry to hear about your loss. I wish I had some advice, but AF is almost always on time for me. If I am ever late, it is usually only a day. After my missed miscarriage at 19 weeks, AF came back exactly a month after my loss and have been on time ever since... but hoping not to have her anymore since TTC again (this being the first month)... am supposed to see AF today or tomorrow... Have you taken a test yet???? Best of luck!

~Crystal~ Trying to be first time mother
First pregnancy ended in loss as missed miscarriage at 19 weeks.

Thu Jan 31, 2013 7:43 pm

I started bleeding the day before I was going to test. I am very sure that it is a m/c. So sadly looks like no September baby for me. But I will just enjoy my kids and wait til May and talk to husband again.

Steph. Mother of Eva-15,Jordan-10, Christopher-9, Abigail-6,and a angel son Joshua. Host of Pregnancy and Infant Lose board. Mummieeva@yahoo.com