Sat Jun 09, 2007 12:57 pm
Maybe Im just venting, but I just wonder if I'm the only one who is going through the emotions of ttc. Im very young and the doc has told me over and over nothing is wrong with me or my dh....but something has to be, I mean Im ovulating and Im having intercouse exactly when my doc says to, and I just dont understand where the sperm goes....it HAS to go somewhere, and If Im ovulating....how am I not getting pregnant? Im mean having intercouse and practically standing on my head!! I cry all the time because I just feel so empty, every month when I get my period, its like a week long depression, and the anxiety of always wondering, am I pregnant? am I pregnant? omg, I might be pregnant...it can kill you emotionally!! Im so freakin sick of all the ovulation tests and mucus checks and u name it, I've done it...what happened to just having sex and getting pregnant?? I cry myself to sleep at night and I just think about it ALL the time. I hate the "waiting" game...and I hate it when other women just get pregnant the minute they make out with someone...I just dont get it, I NEVER thought I would be going through this, I always thought I'd get married, have sex, and get pregnant. Just have sex and get pregnant! Doesnt always work that way! Sometimes I wonder if I have never been on birth control when i first got married, if I'd be pregnant by now? who knows....Im just so sick of this emotional roller coaster....Im just ready to give up....maybe its not meant to be.