I've posted something very similar to this before.  I still feel this way, and from what I understand, I probably will until I have my little baby in my arms.  I am 21 weeks and have already suffered terrible anxiety that has landed me in the doctor's office.  They said it is related to me being around the time I lost our last baby.  I've told everyone because I figured it didn't make any difference.  I waited until I was 12 weeks with Xavier and lost him at 18 and still had to tell everyone he was gone.  I think everyday about all the things going wrong inside and still can't grasp that a little baby is going to be coming to our home.  Which is why I have nothing ready and dont' plan on it.  I know that sounds terrible, but packing up baby stuff once was too much and I'll be darned if I do it again. I have nothing magic to say that will lessen your worry...except to say that what you are feeling is normal.  I can't even believe I'm 21 weeks.  I think my mind has blocked out that my body is pregnant.  It is a way that our brain copes and helps protect us...the same way shock is meant to protect our bodies for the feelings of pain and grief. 
 
I do feel more optimistic than I did in the beginning...but still not great. I keep thinking after the next ultrasound things will be better...and maybe they still will be. I have ultrasound number 4 on Monday and maybe then I will finally be able to find joy in this pregnancy.  But you are not alone...everyone on here has been where you are...and has felt how you feel...just allow yourself to feel how you feel and to do what you need to do for yourself, and don't push yourself too hard.  ((hugs))

Yep.  You expressed exactly how I feel.

We saw the baby's hb today on u/s.  I was shocked to see it there.  I had been convinced that this baby wouldn't make it.

I had two m/c before DS and m/c DS's identical twin.  With every pg I've experienced loss, so I can relate to what you are going through.  All you can do at this point is keep a positive attitude and have faith.  Everything is pretty much out of your control...I'm sure you're taking good care of yourself so no worries there   Try not to reflect too much on the past and instead focus on the future.  M/C does scar us and we're never the same.  I wish everyday I could go back to being pg and naive of the horrible things that can (and do) happen.  **HUGS**

I know how it is. I have lost two babies and spent my entire first trimester worrying. I think what helped me is that I made myself a deal. If there was no cramping or bleeding by my 14 week u/s and we could see the baby was doing fine, I would stop worrying. And I did! I sometimes tell DH I hope the baby is okay, but I know it is. I think setting little goals and then thinking realistically, as in, if you have NO m/c symptoms, you're probably going to be okay.
Hang in there and just keep loving on your precious baby!!

I hear about this often, I was determined to not feel this way and love and enjoy my second as if I would have if my first did just fine. That is not happening some days better than others but since yesterday when I spotted blood I cant even think like I am pg, ya I'm going to the doctor but I am numb and just going through the motions the reality of holding this baby one day is not their for me.
Lisa
Nahum 1:7

I'm 36 weeks and still feel this way.  Both DH and I will relax more when Kiera is actually here.

I know how you all feel. Because of my 3 previous losses my Dr just did my first ultrasound when I was exactly 5weeks. Since all we could see was the gestational sac at this point, I've almost convinced myself that this will end up being a blighted ovum and end in m/c #4... I hate feeling this way, and I wish I could shake it too. I go back next week when I should be 6 weeks and 2 days, and I'm just praying to GOD that there is actually a little baby growing in there. I know this doesn't help to ease your own fears, but I just want you to know that you are not alone sweetie. I think anyone with a loss has these fears. I'm praying for all of us...

You are not alone. I am almost 32 weeks and still worry.  I feel baby moving around and I have bad thoughts.  I think it just comes with a loss.  My poor OB has gotten all these panicked calls and weird questions- and she handles them all.  I wish I had words of wisom or comfort, but I think once the innocence is gone, we are always this way.

It is SO normal...and it sucks! I am sorry. It takes time really, lots of time, and for every person they reach a spot of feeling just a little safer at different times. I hope your time comes soon.